Live your dreams, as if they were, until they become!

January 20, 2007

That’s what I have said for years now and it’s still holds true. I’m starting to realize how possible living my dreams with this horse could be possible. I have been so fortunate in my lifetime to have had some crazy tragic experiences and subsequently constructive and successful events occur and it goes without saying that has made me be the somewhat skeptical and weary but equally brash and trudging blindly forward kind of gal that makes me a bit off, yet still endearing to most. To know me is to love me as that’s your only option!

I keep pinching myself so I remember how fortunate I am to have this time to get to work in such a safe, helpful and positive environment and have Lara, Tiffany and Becky around to provide me with training insights on Jo. This whole system of working with your horse rather than telling him what to do has really gotten me thinking about what I have been doing all these years with my riding and how my whole psychology of dressage and riding in general has been so faulted. This blog’s picts I pulled from video clips. (the other Jo I’ve been spending a significant amount of time with) was nice enough to offer to video and Tiffany helped me from the ground. The moments of true through-ness and light-ness are ever-increasing. I am now able to obtain that feeling of having him “in” my hands and not “on” my hands, really pushing from the hind end with a desire to move forward and light off my leg. He’s a pretty special horse and getting more special and fun to ride daily.
Europe or bust!.. I’m still in a holding pattern for my European trip as my plans keep changing but I’m looking forward to announcing the changes in my training plans and hope they are as exciting of news as I imagine they will be. Kari isn’t going to be able to go due to commitments at her farm and the timing with school for Chelsea just didn’t work out either but I do have a travel companion and I’m thinking he’s pretty excited about the trip. It will be fun to share in someone’s first European experience too!

The video podcasting daze continues as opportunities abound for HorseGirlTV! I’ve shot the 4 episodes thus far, have 2 more lined up here in the Rogue Valley and some AMAZING prospects of shoots in Holland, Germany and Spain. The website is coming together nicely. I’ve delved into my branding on the logo fairly heavy at this point. The LLC is setup and I’m researching my insurance needs and the basic organization biz aspects so the ball is rolling. Now I just need a more concrete biz plan, start hammering out the database, episode editing and get my marketing plan in order. Not too much for this gal of course! No problem to be marketing, engineering, biz dev, Q & A, design & development, finance and the CEO all in one person! Hmfp! So yuh… I’m crazy to try and do this all on my own but I’m hoping I can outsource my database work and that my fabulous designer friends will provide me with much needed criticisms on my development of the logo AND that my network of amazing people in my life will provide the emotional support to make it all possible.

I’m rambling now and guessing that means I’m done for the day. Just another sunrise and sunset in ye ole Ashland. I thought of Nicole a great deal yesterday and laughed out loud and cried out loud yesterday evening at a flick with a friend. It’s called “Running with Scissors” and I recommend it. I was having some issues yesterday and so wished I could just phone Nicole up and have her yell at me for a bit. You don’t miss it until it’s gone and I certainly miss her but I have to remember this of the folks that are in my life in this time. We’re all far from perfect but how would I feel without these not-so-perfect people in my life? What do I take for granted in those that I spend my days and nights with? Yup, you’d don’t miss it until it’s gone. I am happy that I’m mostly living in my days and not fretting so much over my tomorrows. It’s a happy place to be for certain!

Our 7th month anniversary!!!

January 15, 2007

Mine and Joewell’s 7 month anniversary marked the best ride of my life! It was an accident really that on the day of our anniversary we simply “clicked” but it was the best feeling ever and unfortunately I don’t have any witty or creative way to put it so simply stated it was fabulous. I dare even venture to state he quite possible gave me his most solid, elevated and through passage of his career! Yes, that was bold but that’s simply how it felt and appeared in the mirrors.

After talking with the gals at Lara’s farm this past month and learning more about horses, dressage and even a few profound life lessons from them all, I’ve started trying to listen to Jo rather then my previous attempts at telling him what to do. It’s starting to become more of a conversation than ultimatums and it’s working. He seems happier. I enjoy my rides more. I don’t need much spur and rarely ride with a whip and he’s forward, mostly engaged and so soft in my hands. Our training sessions are slowly becoming more consistent, quiet and effective. I’m still looking forward to my departure for Europe and my plans are ever (and I do mean E-V-E-R) changing. Leaving Ashland will now be bittersweet for several reasons but my opportunities abound at this in my life and I’m taking them. In regards to the ever changing part, I’m not sure what this will mean but there is a chance I’ll be training at a facility in Holland for a period of time and I’m thinking of skipping the Sunshine Tour in the south of Spain simply because I want to be 1000% ready for international competition before I enter at “A” for my next Grand Prix. I’ll know more at the end of this week as to my potential new directions but I’m thinking my first big show will be Samur, France in May.

Other than having my best ride ever it’s the same old, same old in Ashland. Circus class last night and dinner at the sheep followed. I had a not-so-memorable yet generally fun evening out with Lara and Abbey last Friday night and it was certainly a blast hanging with the girls. Picollo is as spoiled as ever. Ashland is hella cold right now. HorseGirlTV is starting to come together now and I’m hoping to have a rough cut of one episode before I leave the country! And yes… I know I use exclamation marks far too much lately but that’s how life feels and I’m rolling with it AND I’ve started saying “sorry” far too much lately when it’s not appropriate so I’ll take note of that and change it.

New Year’s Eve in Ashland

January 1, 2007

So another year comes to a halt and I’m wondering where it all went? This time last year was horrible. I’d returned to the states from Spain for the wrong reasons, Picollo had become paralyzed and we were both trapped in Texas for the duration. Then there was my whole returning to “live” in LA which was for certain a learning experience, Sage and Elise’s incredible wedding and up to Seattle for the summer to train with Gwen on Joewell, San Francisco for Dallas and Vida’s wedding and then my “stop-over” in Ashland to see Nicole. Let’s hope 2007 finds me a bit more wise and stable in my life. There will be moves here and there but I’m hoping I’m better prepared to make the smart and thoughtful choices this time around!

I’ve really enjoyed hanging in Ashland with my friends and have made a few new ones that are now near and dear to my heart. The gals at Lara’s farm, the new Sheep friends have enhanced my Ashland experience all the more! I wish I didn’t have to leave but know I MUST go as I’ll probably never have this opportunity again. Life isn’t always about the easy way and I’m well versed in this. Having Joewell, at this time, with these connections that I need to foster are too aligned not to follow through. What state I come back to at this point is anyone’s guess, including my own? All I know is this preparation of paperwork, I’m gonna be holding the veterinarian’s little hand as he processes the paperwork to make sure everything is done in a timely fashion and we get out of the country as planned with no more additional expenses.

So I guess I ventured off the beaten path of talking about THIS New Year’s Eve. The long and short?.. it was a great night, playing hostess with Susan, hanging with Kari and , a short night’s sleep at the Ashland Springs Hotel and New Year’s Day brunch shared with , Charley and Nate. What more could a girl ask for on the first day of the year but to spend it with three incredibly good-looking, talented and kind people!

Happy New Year!